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1. I don't like riding a car. There were some moments I felt that I was close to my death when I was in the car. Actually, my fear is toward transportation itself. I feel fear to take an airplane or a train. I firmly think that the only safe transportation is my foot. 2. I've played the cello since I was in the first grade of elementary school. These days, I am practicing jazz piano, especially pieces from Bill Evans. 3. I'm having hardship on talking with girls and teachers. 4. I started web programming since the COVID-19 quarantine. I am trying to launch a chrome extension based social media named Ahoy, with Jaewon and Seonghun. It will grow to a 1B dollar company, and Google will buy it. 'Ahoy!' just came out to the web store, and you can download in  https://chrome.google.com/webstore/detail/ahoy/ahepineneaniaknbpemfghfamobkhpkn?hl=ko 5. I really love to eat ramen that I can only eat ramen for a month. However, I couldn't eat ramen from Cambodia beca...

Main Question: A dream? D on't you want to be a star ? I always wanted the life full of attention and applaud , just like Beyonce or Justin Bieber. People watched them on TV and listened to their music, making some replies and reactions. But most importantly, celebrities could give influences to the public. They could change the world. Compared to them, I was just nothing. Nobody except my family or friends recognized me. If this happens until I die, maybe I would be no more historically important then random dust. Just like other stars, I dreamed of influencing the world. I dreamed of changing the world. I dreamed to be a star. To do that, initially, I needed fans . A nd w ho could be my fan ? I didn't have a big studio with nice instruments that can produce a billboard chart music. From the perspective of producing music, what I could do was recording me playing cello in the orchestra with the shoddy phone recorder. I thought I wouldn't gain any kind of popularit...

     I remember the warm winds when I played soccer at the playground when I was in elementary school. I remember the shouting after I magically scored in the recess time of middle school. I remember the laughter of the friends who played soccer with me in front of the dormitory. I remember I was happy.      What is the difference between a pro player and an amateur? You said it was a performance, but actually, it isn't. Pros are the luckiest people. You said you could be a lucky guy, but you were too late. Look at your body. You should have more muscles and a higher height. Your frustration isn't only yours, but its the feeling of every child who wanted to be a soccer player. You smile anytime you play soccer, but that doesn't mean that you can't smile when you do something else.      I gave up being a soccer player because it was too hard. Maybe I could chase that dream if I were an English boy who lives in Manchester. Maybe I could cha...

Dear FutureMe, Hi, I'm Seong-Jun of November 14th, 2019. Today is Korean SAT day, so I came out in the morning and cheered for domestic seniors. After some weeks, they will get out of the dormitory. Seniors have only a few left days in KMLA, and you would also be in this situation when you read this letter. How is it feel like? Are you satisfied with your achievement in KMLA? I did similar speculation after the end of the first year in here, mostly regretting not achieving anything. I was full of idealistic thoughts, like studying vector calculus, Python, deep learning, Oxtoby chemistry, etc. However, I spend most of the time procrastinating on Youtube and Facebook. I wasn't a better person than me of 2017. The year 2018 passed like that, and now it's bounding to the end of 2019. I am somewhat improved, but still, have to do more. Now I can see the intention and significance of literary devices, and read sonnets. You will read at the end of 2020. What is your prog...

     In the post 'Being a Leader', I said I will set up a goal that brings a positive effect something like '30 push-ups every day', and it should be done every day. Therefore, I set up one goal, which is 'do abdominal exercise every day. From 10 / 28 Monday, I kept it for a week, and next week, 11 / 8,  I added plank exercise, squat exercise, and 20 push-ups per day. Surprisingly, I did all of that! It was not very hard, but it was not easy. Every day my muscles were sore, but I felt my body getting better. It was a happy pain.      However, there were some goals that I couldn't keep even for a day. It was studying for 2 hours and read a book for 30 minutes per day. I was regretful and shameful. It was lucky that I had no tests or quiz that week. If it wasn't, I would have been in big trouble. Maybe it was because of the exercise. I didn't exercise every day before, so the sudden increase in exercise amount might be the factor of my sleepiness and ...

     I wanted to be an ideal leader. I was captain of the volunteering club, sonnet club, and flag football club last semester, but I wasn't a good leader, not even a median, but actually the bad one. I analyzed why I failed on it, and there were several reasons: lack of ability and lack of motivation.      And I'm still. I found that I could not perform not only a leader's role but also a student's role - studying. I was lethargic, and my will to improve the situation was strong, but the will to practice was extremely weak.      I recalled my memory when I was at the auditorium for 20 penalty point special training. At education, I learned how strong a habit is and how to make a habit. Now is the time that habit is really needed. Therefore, I will do the same thing that I learned in the special training and I start it by today.  

     It was last Saturday, after a 12-hour-trip in Hongdae including cooking, shopping, and so many other things. The time was 10:30 PM in a subway bounded to home, and I had to stay at the subway for one hour and thirty minutes more. I was extremely exhausted and my knee disease had started an hour ago. I was barely standing at the subway.      I was standing in front of the priority seat, that has been empty for the last thirty minutes. For the first fifteen minutes, I did not think of sitting on it because it was culturally tabooed even it was legal to sit on if it is empty. However, the painful situation made me think of the legitimacy of sitting there. I once had a debate with the motion 'Is it okay to sit on the priority seat' when I was a child. I was at the okay side, arguing for the conditional responsibility which means I had a duty to give up my seat only when there is elderly in transportation.      I soon realized that I had...